caught in a swirl

A swirl looks like this

a swirl is not your friend

it walks beside you, though sometimes it is inside you

it makes you feel bad, useless, hopeless

a swirl sucks you into a vortex of fear, or anger, or both

it's like a virus, airborne, seeking a host body.

Sucked down, helpless in its grip, you feel there's no escape,

and you are distressed and disturbed.

Why you? other people don't seem afflicted in this way.

Is it something you've done, or not done.......do you feel ashamed?

Is that it?

Your head feels full of pressure and empty of thoughts

however

that awful feeling, that state of mind, might be a comfort

because you know it so well, it's so familiar,

because of that maybe

you don't want

to give up the swirl just yet.