Swirls

I feel helpless, worthless, hopeless I have no energy, no purpose, I feel isolated I feel overwhelmed I am in despair and afraid I am in a space devoid of hope I am all I and no I Panic is constant Roses don't smell of anything I've had wild thoughts that I was dying, and panicked I can’t sit still, something is agitating my body and my mind, and I'm anxious It’s like being in a closed space, it's claustrophobic. How do I get out when I feel swept up in a swirling vortex? Someone inside me is intent on soul murder; who is it? Can I talk to her? Will she answer? Is there anyone there? No, it’s just me and my fear, we’re bad company. But what is the fear? It’s not rational, I can’t explain it but it’s all mine, it gets going inside me. Is my chemistry out of balance? Are they ’bad thoughts' because I feel guilty, ashamed, remorse, regret? It’s funneling, whirling, gaining momentum and force, like a tornado, a circular swirl with an em...

Q & A Swirls by ronken: ronkenj@gmail.com Swirls by ronken: ronkenj@gmail.com Welcome. This is a non linear exploration of a particular painful experience that we name a swirl. A swirl catches you and makes you suffer distress and despair. There is a way into the swirl and a way out. Feel free to send comments to ronkenj@gmail.com Twitter: @swirl123 Q & A Q & A Q. What is this blog for? A. To share thoughts and images about a very painful experience. Q. Who is it for? A. Anyone, but especially those who may have been through a swirl. Q. What is a swirl? A. It is the name we give to an experience of being sucked or pushed into an emotional state of extreme negativity. This negativity always involves self blame. Q. What is this experience? A. It is an experience of disconnection from self and others, and what is left is the sense of being in a... ronken: ronkenj@gmail.com...