Swirls

I’m being pulled into somewhere horrible, sucked into a whirlpool of awful feelings. I’m lost in the energy of the Swirl. It’s a frighte­ning space, somehow familiar, but also  alienating .

A swirl is not your friend it walks beside you, but sometimes it is inside you it makes you feel bad, useless, hopeless and lost.... it sucks you into a vortex of fear, or anger, or both. It's like a virus, airborne, seeking a host body. Sucked in, helpless in its grasp, you feel there's no escape, and you are distressed and disturbed. Is it something you've done, or not done.......do you feel ashamed? Your head feels full of pressure and empty of thoughts, feelings of dread fill you up. You have to find your thoughts again. Where did they go?

The swirl experience involves the coming together of certain emotions. These always involve self deprecation. The feelings may include fear, anxiety, shame, anguish and despair. In addition feelings associated with diminishment. It is the combination of these feelings with a background anxiety that gives rise to the felt power or force of the swirl.

What matters is to discern the coordinates of the swirl.

The power of the swirl lies in its energy. It creates a force or resistance that makes it very difficult to think or reflect.  The swirl experience is one of alienation; alienation from self and other.

1. To move with a twisting or whirling motion; eddy. 2. To be dizzy or disorie­nted. 3. To be arranged in a spiral, whorl, or twist. 4 To cause to move with a twisting or whirling motion. 5. To form into or arrange in a spiral, whorl, or twist. 1. A whirling or eddying motion or mass: a swirl of white water. 2. Something, such as a curl of hair, that coils, twists, or whirls. 3. Whirling confusion or disorder: "high-p­ressure farce built around the swirl of mistaken identit­ies" (Jay Carr). [Middle English swyrl, eddy, probably of Low German or Scandin­avian origin.] The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition copyright ©2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Updated in 2009. swirl 1. to turn or cause to turn in a twisting spinning fashion 2. to be dizzy;  my head was swirling 1. a whirling or spinning motion, esp in water 2. a whorl; curl 3. the act of swirling or stirring 4. dizzy confusion [probably from Dutch zwirrelen; related to ...

I feel helpless and worthless isolated and overwhe­lmed by something ... in despair and afraid ... in a dark space devoid of hope...